Almost 10 years ago, I was sitting on a small bed, in a small room, very far from home, with a very big ocean between me and my family, in a huge city, with folks speaking a language quite foreign to me, feeling very small and very lonely and wondering where my place was in this big old world of ours. It was in this moment, this solitary moment, that the intents of my heart poured out in a jumble of words full of earnest desire and terrifying vulnerability, but big risks get big rewards EVEN when you're feeling quite small. And that friends, that moment, that's when I knew. I knew for sure, for certain, that I was supposed to become an attorney!
If you're feeling a bit let down after that tremendous introduction, you are not alone. I felt quite let down too. Ha. Attorney? Are you kidding? I wanted to change the world not just gouge folks for money. Ahhh, but perhaps that's just why I was I called to the field?
Well friends, in the last 10 years, a lot has happened. One marriage, and I should add, one still existing and quite happy marriage at that :-), two kids, two degrees, two moves, three years of law school, one particularly painful Bar examination, and a whole heap of tears and laughs and friendships and reflection and more tears and bad grades and good grades and interning and externing and mentoring and menteeing and HERE I AM. Say what? For reals, here I am. A full-fledged, living breathing attorney.
And this is where we pick-up with the title of this entry. You see, somewhere, somehow, someway in all of the classes, and the stress, and the late nights, and the early mornings, and middle of the nights, and the aching to be done coupled with the simultaneous fear of being done, and the loans and the loans and the loans, somewhere in that big chasm of higher education and real life, I forgot. Just a little bit here and a little bit there. But, I forgot. I lost myself a bit. My focus, the fact that I am in control of this crazy, awesome, tremendous, incredible, sensational thing called POSSIBILITY. But I've reunited with possibility and we're starting something new, something exciting, something life changing for me and for my clients too. A rebirth! And not a moment too soon :-)